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On this part of the website I will be hosting a blog . I don't what else to say, its a blog . Hopefully some people enjoy reading it .
For the past few years of my life I have been a neet, neet meaning "not in education, employment, or training . In late december 2021 I just stopped going to school, I was 16 at the time, depressed, dsyphoric, and just not in the mood to engage in school . It's something that I'm a little embarrassed to talk about, it makes me feel like a failure, in America the vast majority of people gradurate from high school, even those from very disadvantaged backgrounds, but I didn't . It's socially seen as a really big accomplishment to graduate from high school, it's also considered normal, almost like the late teenager equivalent to speaking your first words as a baby, but I couldn't do it . I'm not gonna beat
myself up about it though
I spend a lot of time on my computer . From watching anime, and playing video games, to programming, and reading about geography, most of my hobbies require, or are made much easier with my access to a computer . As we know, people who sit around on the computer all day have a tendency to gain weight . Thankfully I like to go outside, and run around in my huge yard, so I’m not as bad off in the weight department as many who use their computers a lot . Sadly lately I have gained a bit of weight . In part because of the recent holiday season giving many families including my own a reason to cook a lot of food, but also that correlating with the temperatures of the fall, and winter making me not wanna go outside . It’s now March, and I live in the deep south, so the weather actually feels pretty good now . It’s not too hot, or too cold, so I have decided to start going on jogs again, and holy i did the first one I did take a toll on my back . Now I know if I do that again in the future I need to stretch beforehand . I’ll probably try to eat less food generally because as we all know nothing tastes as good as skinny feels . Hopefully this will help me lose just a bit of weight in the coming months .
Earlier this year I started working on a website, this website . For sometime now I haven’t been active in updating this site . The reason for this is because I’ve been learning how to draw . Yes, even amid the rise of AI art I still see it as worthwhile to learn how to draw, because of this development I’m announcing a new section of The Femcel Flowers site named MyArt, on this part of the site I will be posting drawings I do, and even add commentary to some . I have tried to learn how to draw in the past, when I was 13-14, but I lost my motivation to do it after losing my drawing pen . I wish I didn’t do that, and it sucks to think about where I could be artistically, but better late than never I guess .
“Where have I been ?” One may ask after me not updating anything on this site for at least one month, and the answer to this question isn’t very interesting . Mostly just interacting with my friends on Discord, watching anime, and writing . Well there was also me trying to Write, Record, and edit a youtube video . That aside, none of this is much different than what I typically do at the current time in my life . I guess the writing I’m doing is a little different because I’m writing characters, and concepts for what is hopefully a future visual novel I release, and this attempt at making a youtube video has gotten way further than my others in recent months . Still though my life has this chronic laziness embedded into it that I can’t seem to rip away . That critique of myself aside, since I last updated this site I really got into the Made In Abyss Anime . I have seen so many great things said about this show for so many years, on top of that it has had exceptionally high ratings on My Anime List for quite a while now, and I’m glad to say I really enjoyed it . It was horrifying, and intriguing all in one cute bundle . I wrote a review about it on My Anime List that I will post later today on this site . If it isn’t obvious, I recommend . Made in Abyss aside, one of the more creative activities that has filled my time is writing characters, and story for visual novel game I want to make . A basic synopsis for the game would probably be “There’s a depressed, and pessimistic woman named Anne who starts working at a video game store in a Cyberpunk San Francisco, and while there she forms relationships with various people who work at, and visit the store frequently that help her improve her life” . It’s not the most interesting sounding story, but hopefully once it’s complete many people enjoy it . I might talk about other things I have done recently at a later date, see ya nerds .
America, throughout its history, is very notable for its involvement in coups, regime changes, and assassinations in foreign countries, especially during the Cold War period. Today I’ll be giving an underdeveloped lay perspective on the regime changes during the Cold War period with the Soviet Union. The Soviet Union, a self-proclaimed socialist state, was the main geopolitical rival of the United States during the 20th century. During the Cold War, both countries were very understandably scared of the potential for war between themselves since they were both armed nuclear countries . Instead of them fighting for hegemonic power by engaging in direct war with each other they did via technological innovation, and political influence in other countries. Many socialist governments, and movements were friendly to the Soviet Union during this time. America, afraid of the rise of Soviet influence in other countries, supported liberal democracies, and right-wing nationalist authoritarian governments. These included West Germany, South Korea, Taiwan, Brazil, Japan, Chile, and many others, all because they rejected Socialism and Communism. Many of these governments were authoritarian, right-wing, anti-Communist governments. Because of America sponsoring coups and uprisings against democratically elected left-wing governments, many center-left, like social liberals and social democrats, don’t like this tendency of America during the Cold War. I will present reasons why I, as a liberal social democrat, support many of the regime changes, and think others should as well. Many of the socialist states of the 20th century I think liberals generally agree are bad. They were very restrictive in regards to freedom of religion, freedom of speech, and had routine mismanagement which led to mass suffering, from famines to mass killings of political dissidents. Authoritarian right-wing nationalist governments are also known to engage in these behaviors, so why support the United States sponsoring coups of these governments? Well for one, the United States, a liberal democratic government being the main influence on an authoritarian country seems much better than the Soviet Union being the same one, and in the long run it seems as though countries that were socialist in the 20th century were unable to transition to less authoritarian, liberal democratic states, with the exception of Eastern Europe. Chile, South Korea, Taiwan, etc. were able to transition out of their right-wing authoritarianism to liberal democratic states; Cuba, Vietnam, North Korea, and Russia on the other hand were unable to make that transition.
